Recently, work through my Worship Album has been progressing, as original songs have been producing at a steady but nice pace.
Music itself has taken a promise to skip beside my way through the day and nights I survive the world, yet it hasn't yet let me breakthrough in passion as I had once done.
The Worship Music and Christian genre in general has taught me much more of the meaning of worship and music, not through dynamics, but rather by the faith in music.

But I plan to achieve a great goal through the praise of God, as well as letting others experience the wonders of melody God has given.

This next album, which is the Worship Album will include of both original songs and a handful of other songs that I hold dear to me. So far plans are:
Non original songs are not yet decided, but there is a chance of none.
For a mastered recording, i hope to use our church's sound system, for they have recording abilities that i hope to experiment with, and possibly use!

Thanks
Jerome

I can no longer stress my desire for the Holy Spirit to work in me, and us all. I find so much love in our community that God has gifted us for, our Church, my small group, the music that He blessed us with. Today, my sin caught me, I felt strange urges of lust, and I will no longer forget myself of this, for I did pursue this, at the moment, proving my weakness and need to God. I am not close to the truth God wants for us in our life, but I know that we all fall short, and I see how much God is working. This pain and sin brought a light to my heart, for I picked up my guitar and wrote a new song in the name of Christ Jesus. I hate, hate this bondage of sin that I have put myself into, and making it public to others is what helps us live out our lives, both now and spiritually. The song is a song which I wish to bring as a plea for God to give me a heart to give up my will to Him, for I  know what I am doing now is wretched and evil, for my life belongs to God, no longer to myself, to any sin or prison this world has put me in. Today, I wish to emphasize the falsehood that I do bring, in contrast of my words and actions, and I wish for a clean and pure heart to glorify the only name that matters.

The lyrics of the song, named Take My Will

I stand before you, lost in sin

Its grip so strong, can I resist?

But I know, that you’re still at my side

And I wait, for you to enter this life

 

Lord take my will, and reign in me

Can’t stand to see me destroying what’s yours

Lord take my will, will you set me free

From the things that the world puts on me

 

My life I offer, but Lord you know my heart

Cry Hallelujah, yet so set apart

From, you Lord, would you cleanse my sin

And Lord, would you lead the way

 

I know I’ve fallen short, I know there must be more, Lord what can I do, where can I run?

I hope to make this song public, for I believe this song is one closest to my heart, and I hope to show others, so that they can see what I see in the name of God. I pray that as brothers and sisters in Christ, our lives and mind can give up what we have taken from God, and return with humble praise, for we have done enough damage in our lives.

Jerome

Well, In all, RYCE winter retreat was one of the most enjoyable events I had attended. The people I had met were ones with much to share, with a blessed life that we all bestow from God. Four days, these days consisted of freezing our teeth rotten, to lifting our voices to praise the Lord, who brought us to this moment, this place, for this purpose. Pastor Dustin spoke with much love and truth, and his message of staying anchored in faith and the gospel opened our eyes to the wonders anew, that God has plan and purpose over us, both within our hearts and within our own communities. His message of holiness was like a refuelation of my heart, as something within me screamed for truth the reveal. Holiness of eyes, mind and heart. My life was always lost, there is always something either missing or held back, as if there is never a equilibrium of my faith and devotion. Pastor Dustin proclaimed the absolute truth and beauty of this situation. His speaking of pornography, lust, pride, greed, body image, all things similar, truly touched many of us. I lived as if my temptations and issues were only thorned upon me, not realizing how universal this lusting problem is, and even my closest friends, dear to me suffer from this, and it let me feel how much God has given to me at that time, that I had people who knew my pains, and that I could be a light to help and control others as well.

On Monday morning, I led a quiet morning worship time, and the result seemed great. I truly felt God guiding us through the songs, even when my body and heart were unprepared for the music. The afternoon the day before, during the freetime hours, Jane, Tim, Hans and I practiced the music, trying to get a feel. The trouble came when we had to create our own set, wires, mics and all that, right upon their massive one. The confusion and  inefficiency of our equipment sent my heart in a depressed mode, stressed and frustrated that my leading had caused this bad turn. Our own amps were insufficient in volume for the large gym, and I knew I had made a HUGE mistake. We came through, and asked if we could use the RYCE worship team for access in their own sound system, and their attitude and heart for the praise of God was incredible. No sign of annoyance or frustration was scented from the worship leader, nor the sound guy, Justin. And even through that, the moment had not changed my mood, leaving me dumped for the rest of the day. We arrived to the gym at 6:30 AM, and prepared to set up, but Justin was not there. We ended up getting ready ourselves, with help from Tim, and started practicing well and safe. Justin came in, and the first thing I had to say was Thank You, for without his help, we would be stuck. Same with the worship leader, Ben, who led us through the connections at hand. The set was simple, and I just thank God that we could enact the worship to Him.

The people who helped us, and those I met, all had such a great heart in Christ, and it really enlightened me to see how much this faith can do to a person, creating a community of such great love and appreciation. My small group was another scene of this, for we saw a love for all things Christian, taking the world at hand, and wishing for a heart to see Christ within it, to the core. Thank you Kevin and Frank for leading our group and I believe our time was golden.

We had a wonderful time, laughter, spirituality, love, friendship, everything. And most of all, we learned who we will, or can be through Christ, in holiness and gospel, and whether we like it or not, God's plan for all has been decided, and will change our lives to a happiness that we could never imagine.

Alright! well today was a rather full day, i awoke around the time of 9, with eyes to a near open, yet still lingering for sleep. I arrived at church along with my electric guitar and amp, and entered in. the message Pastor Weidman gave was definitely one that demonstrated the glory of God, not just an average "story of Christmas". It went well, and after, me, daniel and william contemplated the leave  to eat elsewhere, while combined seminar took place. we took the route to stay, and it was rick warren, the purpose driven life guy, i must say this kinda thing may drive me nuts. not that it is a false thing, just the fact that they base the teachings on this book, "and  few bible verses". But soon after lunch we ate, and we had worship practice, with jane, tim and hans, and it was nice, but my mood was unmusical at the moment, it seemed I needed my acoustic more, for i had thought that micing the guitars would be hassled, and it would be, but ya, whats done is did. Right after, Stephanie, (thanks again for the help) and her mom drove me to the teen center to play basketball with some guys of church, which consisted of those top players, and my playing was okay, just rather, short and inconsistant, not fitting. But turns out Kenny, and the guys Arthur and Russell were both there and they were coming over for dinner and a movie later that night, so we played until around 5 and got home, crashed at Kenny's place for a while and drove to my house and got pizza, good stuff. We watched a mega Taiwanese movie, called Cape No. 7, i believe, it is a half cultral half "romantic" movie, and it was a great depiction of Taiwanese behavior and greatness.

Well I just wrote about my day, which I guess is intersting, but not quite informative. So yes, I have finished one song for my new album, called The Pain I Conjure. Here are the lyrics, and no, a recorded verson will not come soon at all.

Tide receding, sun proceeding, lies told

See this conjuration reprising

There’s no running, pain is setting, sun is, rising

This pain reaching, past this season, Broken!

 

Crumbling nevermore, this grave demise, I grasp this final stand to find the end ahead.

 

These hands, vile, branded, defiled, worthless

Endless searching, for true redemption

Tainted words pour out to damper, this numbness

My common abilitation, has fallen

 

See me breaking through, another scene of rage, a paradox of eyes, cannot refine  

 

This desolation, bestowed to my name, exclusion of redemption, there is no return

I rise to my stand, before this shun, the words, under your breath

 

This faded sight has revealed these eyes, my vulner and seclusion everlasting,

There’s a sense of light, but it shines so bright, blinding me into a darkest side

 

Broken soon

 

My mind brings a fire, destructing my will, wreaths these thoughts within

Its as if the tide has turned, sun has risen past these vows

 

Hardly enduring, this empty cycle, like a ghostly drifted sea, where can I run, a cold past, a broken fate

 

This is the pain, I conjure

There will definietly be varied  style of lyrics, repeats and stuff. this is pretty much just the main form. i need to play it to others soon...

Hey, well, i actually got to writing something

Today was very bland, just dark and wet. As i got home i felt my mind getting really dreary, like usual, from the long day and tiring routines of school. I came home and soon went to Auntie Julie's, from CCCTO house to babysit the kids, fun and got my algebra stuff done. But before my departure, I had played through the worship set for this coming friday, songs:
My Chains are Gone
Holy is the Lrod
East to West
Mighty is the Power of the Cross

these few days i have been over and over, listening to East to West, trying to get in in my head, and each time i listen it sticks better, and impacts harder. But ya, the last song is great, and basically i hope this set will be one of great spirit and worship.
Yep, well now it leads to more european history reading, which is long and annoying, but needed. Everyday is a tired day, no matter what, and the coldness brings a misleading numbness...

Jerome